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::I am 30.12.03 ( 23:38 ) * Last Thoughts. I love Ron, even when he calls me at 11:30pm to say "good night" (which is sweet and I appreciate) and I have a headache and I'm grumpy and waspish to him. I hope he realizes that. ::Val:: 29.12.03 ( 22:45 ) * Last Thoughts. I had a nice little chat with my mother this morning. I'm in the process of writing a solid to-do list, so that I can get moving on my list of things I want ti happen this year. I'm technically not contagious anymore, a very good thing. So, it's back to work tomorrow. I don't know what schedule I'm supposed to be working: I am just assuming it's 9a-7p since it is another holiday week. If I am actually scheduled to work later than 9a, then I'll just go chill at Bruegger's with some coffee or something and write. And if I get off earlier, no biggie. I'm supposed to go over to Ron's house to discuss the music school with them. My last thoughts were originally going to be something philosophical, but I guess that didn't happen. You want philosophical? Here, that is a philosophical musing written by yours truly. Enjoy. ::Val:: 28.12.03 ( 22:05 ) * Decisions, Decisions. Started thinking about a few things that will be coming up this year...and about how I plan to accomplish them. Looks like I'm coming up on one of those major, "this *will* affect the rest of your year" decision times. I should call my mom, see if we can get together and chill tomorrow, because if I want to do some of this stuff, I'm going to have to move quickly. ::Val:: 27.12.03 ( 15:52 ) * Quarantined. I have strep. I am now on antibiotics, but you have to take two full days of them before you are not contagious any longer. So, I am at home. I have energy and my roomie is visiting a friend out of town, so I am cleaning. Cleaning and keeping one eye on IM because I'm watching a conversation with friends. And I'm listening to music, John Mayer (Room For Squares) because it's good for cleaning and I don't want to go look for my Temptations cds (which are even better for cleaning). ::Val:: 26.12.03 ( 22:27 ) * My 2004 (non-writing) Resolutions. *Get organized. Stay organized. *Be a better friend. *Run a sprint distance triathlon. *Get my driver's license (and a car). *Grow. ::Val:: ( 22:24 ) * Finally...My MayFly Project 2003 Entry. re-learning me: i love ron ukraine new job puppets! started school learned my limits broke through waiting for a ring ::Val:: 16.12.03 ( 22:47 ) * Getting Into The Groove So, the anti-social bit of me that I was stressing about a couple of months ago (October 4th, for the archive hounds) has receded for a bit. I had a really nice night at a x-mas party tonight and there were lots of people there (along with lots of really good food). I talked to various friends for a bit, went downstairs and watched "Finding Nemo" with a bunch of the kids for a bit, and played Catchphrase with a *really* mixed group of people. Had a fun night. I also danced at the church on Sunday night: first time I have done a choreographed dance for an event like that in a while. I really enjoyed myself. And I get to do it again this Sunday at church. I'm working on a lot of stuff...I'll probably post some New Year's Resolutions sometime next week and I have to do the "sum up my year in twenty words or less" thing from the Mayfly Project. Time to think about what the last year has really held for me... ::Val:: 7.12.03 ( 22:54 ) * Almost A New Year. Last December, I was sick and having back spasms, re-discovering who I was, raving about Lord Of The Rings, remembering why I love this city, discussing the possibility of "something more" with a friend. This December, I'm sick and having back spasms, trying to stick true to who I am, re-watching the Lord Of The Rings (extended DVDS...with commentary!), loving this city more and more (aside from my longings to travel which are very different from last year's desire to pick up and run), and am most definitely in the middle of "something more" with my VSB. The more things change, the more they stay the same... I was talking to the VSB a little bit ago about my lack of a girl friend who is mine. I realize that sounds awfully possessive, but there's no one I can think of who I am comfortable enough with to tell anything. I've been doing this loner thing for so long that I don't know if I even remember what it's like to truly have a best friend. Ron's always there for me, but sometimes I just want a girl to talk to, and I feel like I have to spread myself out over five or six people in order to share everything I want. I just want someone to know me. That's my prayer right now: someone (a girl!) who I can know and who will know me... Meanwhile, I was asked to dance for the Christmas concert at church next week and I said "yes". I haven't danced for an event for church in a while (except for the stuff with the kids dance team last year and that doesn't really count); it feels good...feels right this time, not the pressure of "I can't say no" that I got sucked into a while ago. I'm actually really excited about it. So...that's me right now: remembering who i was, realizing who i am, reaching for who i will be...lonely for a girl friend, but completely in love with my VSB (*waves at Ron, who might be reading this since I know he has the addy now...*) I've got this whole tension thing going on right now, being pulled in separate directions but holding steady in the center... ::Val:: 2.12.03 ( 22:29 ) * Procrastinate Much?  What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla  You are Morpheus, from "The Matrix." You have strong faith in yourself and those around you. A true leader, you are relentless in your persuit. What Matrix Persona Are You? brought to you by Quizilla hmm...not so sure about the whole Morpheus thing...(especially because they spelled pursuit wrong: i could change it in the code, but i think my point is made so much better if i leave it that way)... ::Val:: ( 22:05 ) * Changes. On The Blog. I trashed my comments. No real reason behind it, except they aren't used often enough to make them useful or relevant to this blog. Eventually, I'll set up an e-mail address that will be listed off in the sidebar, so if anybody has a burning thought, they can send it to me directly rather than leaving it out in the open. I also pulled the link to my writing blog because I don't use it anymore. I didn't delete the blog or anything--It's still sitting there, it's just defunct. With Me. I'm having some issues physically. Back problems mostly. It's kept me off the computer for awhile and I ended up dropping my first semester in school. I'm sure there's some other stuff I should discuss to, but I'll have to wait until I get a better handle on myself. Maybe I'll post something a little more "serious" later. ::Val:: |
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